Last year, we had a little Halloween party for the babies we knew. All of my son’s friends were under one year old, like him, so sweets were not the best option for the party favour bags. Yet, I wa…
Matcha Green Tea Shortbread
The cookies are buttery, melty, and chock full of the taste of green tea. They go great with a cup of tea.
Ready for Autumn.
…and tea time.
……and stormy weather.
Artwork by the incredibly talented viki-vaki.
I’m about ready for a real thunderstorm.
I don’t know how to narrate the experience of trying to decide if I should save the life of the mother of my existing children or hope to live through my body shutting down to try to keep growing their little sister….
Posts like this remind me that I am NOT allowed to attempt another pregnancy - because after awhile I start to forget just how bad it really was.
You block it out, until you are vomiting from a virus or food poisoning and start having flashbacks. You forget it until a new dentist asks if you have a history of an eating disorder because all the enamel is stripped from the back of your teeth from stomach acid. You start to think, “Oh, babies are so cute. I need another” until you remember two different OB’s have told you that you or a baby or both wouldn’t survive if you attempted another pregnancy, and you’d likely end up needing dialysis and new kidneys. You wonder why you have gained too much weight and feel obsessed with food until you remind yourself that you lost over 40 lbs. in less than that many weeks, despite IV’s and Picc lines and Ensure being forced on you, and that is bound to change your relationship with food.
HG is hard to explain to people who have never experienced it. Afterwards, it’s hard to even imagine just how horrible it was even when you have survived it.
What HG feels like is just beyond words.
A car seat canopy (don’t know how often we will actually use it, maybe just in restaurants if she is sleeping) and 5 pairs of baby legs for only the cost of shipping! We did a promo like this a while back for an udder cover nursing cover and we received it, these are real coupon codes!
|—||Emily Brontë, Wuthering Heights (via sunflower-mama)|